Last week I had my check-up with Dr. Bridges. Everything still going great so that is good! We did test my Vitamin D level and it was in the normal range between 30 and 80, but it was 32, so he recommended I start taking that. (There has been some research suggesting a possible link between breast cancer and low levels of Vitamin D.) You'd think with all the sun I get it would have been higher. More sunbathing for me! Next check-up will be with Dr. Kuhn in October for mammograms and then an exam with her.
Side story... I was at Claire's school tonight for a back to school night and ended up walking down the hallway next to another mom who was wearing a head scarf. You know the kind I'm talking about... not the kind someone would wear just as part of an outfit, but the kind that are meant to cover your bald head. I wanted to say something to her, something encouraging and kind. I remember when various women said things to me... and I wondered, would I do the same?
Well, the answer is not yet. I couldn't do it. Just thinking about what I might say to her made my eyes hurt and want to cry, which didn't seem very cool or kind. I was a little surprised because I really don't feel traumatized by my experience. In fact most of the time it just seems like a dream that I'm not even sure it really happened. But then seeing someone who is going through it all right at this moment reminds me of how I felt when I was in that moment. Sad. Angry. Of course I was happy and filled with gratitude much of the time too, because of all the great people and things to be thankful in my life. Hopefully as more and more time goes by I will be able to pay forward the kind words that were said to me.
