Sugery Tomorrow

Tomorrow is my surgery!  Today I got to have radioactive dye injected into my boob.  It actually was not as bad as it sounds and didn't really hurt at all.  My sentinel lymph nodes have been identified and I have a very large purple X-marks-the-spot under my arm so the doctor knows where to slice in.  I'll tell you all about this interesting procedure later.

This morning I stopped into Fred Meyer because it was suggested I have a bra that opens in the front.  I only found one option and it had a big zipper which I didn't like or think would be that comfortable.  I found another one that I liked, seemed comfortable and sort of sports-bra style that fastened in the back so at least I wouldn't have to pull it over my head.  I figure someone can help me close it if I really can't do it myself.  It cost a little more than I really wanted to spend so I checked the clearance rack.

It just so happened they had several sizes of the exact same bra on the clearance rack.  Everything on the rack was an additional 40% off making them cost less than $20... more what I was hoping for.  

There was one problem. 

They were all pink.

I didn't really want pink.  This is so dumb, but I didn't want the nurse or whoever helps me get dressed to be thinking, "Oh, isn't that sweet.  She has breast cancer and so she has a pink bra to wear to her breast cancer surgery."  I tried the pink bra on.  It fit exactly like the gray one (of course it did because it was the exact same bra except for the color!).

I put in in my basket and thought, who cares if they think I have a pink bra just because I have breast cancer.  That really doesn't matter and it's stupid to spend extra money just because I don't want a pink bra.  Maybe I should wear a pink bra.

Then I looked at the PJs and other things.  And the whole time I was feeling really annoyed about that pink bra.  Maybe because none of my regular bras are pink?  They are neutral colors.  Then I found some cute PJs with bird cages on them.  

And then I put the pink bra back on the clearance rack and grabbed the gray one even though it was silly.  And also because it matched the new PJs better.  

P.S.  The PJs were on clearance so at least I got a deal on them!

P.P.S.  I really do like the color pink, and I appreciate the significance it holds for breast cancer research and support and those things.  But buying a new pink breast cancer bra was just too much for me apparently.

P.P.P.S.  Thank you so much to everyone who gave me a call, sent an email, etc. today to let me know you were thinking of me.  It means so much to me!  Love shana